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How Divorce Affected Me
Posted on Thursday, April 29, 2021
I am a child of divorce. My parents were 19 and got pregnant with me, then got married. I was born in 1991. They had a strained marriage. She had an affair
with my dad's friend, then ran off with him, taking me with her without his knowledge, then filing for divorce. She went out of state making visitation
impossible. My now step father essentially of the last 25 years legally adopted me when I was about 4. My biological father was pushed out of the picture.
My mom had my half-brother in 1998 when I was about 6. We never discussed my real father. He was a taboo subject in the household. My brother didn't
find out about him until he was 13 and I was 19.
I finally moved out at 21 with my now ex-husband, then at 23 I reconnected with my biological father. I thought for years he didn't want me and that
he was this horrible man. I was fed lies and was not allowed to have any say in a relationship or opinion of the man. My mom and grandparents were
angry at me for bringing it back up.
I married my ex the same year that happened in 2015. Then 6 months later he and I separated in June, and I left to go stay with my real dad in Alabama.
It was a strange rebuild. I wound up moving back to Georgia permanently in 2018 after my divorce was final. Fast forward a year later, and I meet
the most amazing man who is now my second husband.
My dad passed away suddenly in July of 2019. My mother was sympathetic when it first happened, but she still insists on calling my step dad my dad.
I couldn't anymore after finding out about the depth of deception.
There are so many things the Ruth Institute talks about that resonate with me about the divorce issue and the fact that adults have to put their children
before their sex lives. I am constantly questioning my marriage, that I don't feel good enough. That I don't feel I deserve him.